Charles Freeland
A Zeitgeist Grown Dormant
The normal order of things looks similar
to what orangutans get up to
when you put them in cages and just expect them to stay there
because the meals are regular and the temperature
never fluctuates by more than a few degrees.
Our disappointment breeds something close to despair
when we let it sit and fester, when we refuse to discuss it with
our first cousins and seek out more distant relatives
in places like Spokane and that amusement park
where, according to reports, the lady was strapped in safely
with a harness for a moment but still managed to worm her way out.
The soft drinks come with so much ice
you begin to suspect someone is playing a practical joke on you,
someone is trying to see just how far they can push you
before you bristle and toss expletives about like bocce balls.
Try the coconut cream pie next time you’re there,
you won’t regret it, but it probably won’t change your life either.
It won’t bring your hidden or stolen memories
cascading back so that you are able finally to write that very long novel
or, at the very least, amaze your friends with your power of recall,
with your ability to tell them exactly where you were when
you realized they couldn’t be less interested in you, really,
than if you were some sort of cuttlefish washed up and motionless
on the beach’s moon-blemished stones.
The Root Word is “Quench”
Turns out the Holy Spirit
is more difficult to lure in
than we first anticipated.
One mostly reliable approach
involves serpents,
smallish brown vipers
draped from our palms
and larger, emerald and white constrictors
daydreaming at our feet.
They are rendered
too timid to bite, forced
I suppose
into a state of hibernation
without the requisite temperature drop.
Afterward, we argue
for positions we don’t believe in
or understand
and then act perplexed
when they are adopted,
destroying in the process
any chance of our being recognized
as geniuses,
as enfants terribles.
There can be little doubt
we’ll go to ordinary graves,
plaques and medals
accumulated before then
all grown passé
and even your standard
ovation gone the way
of the unicycle or the suit of armor.
Not Merely Possible but, on Occasion, Obscene
We assume the nefarious
as default – hex-hurling sisters
and pilots dressed in velvet,
tingly alternatives to
the mails, say, or lavender soap,
to rigid engineering
and a disgust with the outdoors
common among those
who suffered bronchial issues
when they were young
and were therefore more likely
to have finished Moby Dick
before getting a driver’s license.
Say what you want about January,
it still serves a purpose
even if hampered by
that distant, all-encompassing
hum and organic throb
that arises around twilight
and barely wavers until
breakfast when it lessens
in intensity and then dissolves
altogether, to nothing,
like the galaxy come sunrise,
come advent of light
and the cackling, the bickering
of children on their way
to school where they
learn about the Gunpowder Plot
and the lifecycle of
mushrooms, how
those who hunt them
luxuriate in spores.
Oligocene Dreams
Light toward evening slips through a window of its own making
and returns, a cycle that continues until there is little left.
You can catch the entirety up in the palm of your hand
and place it in a jar on the shelf, if you like. You can wait
until it morphs into something else, a diamond, a distant voice
like the one we hear when we are talking to ourselves.
We have slipped into a habit formed decades before
when we felt a crab-like vulnerability and no one was listening,
no one was even in the room. The curtains billowed occasionally
and the print on them ran riot, vegetive and alien,
very like what you’d expect on the slopes of a volcanic island
where, it turns out, the jailhouse is the only safe place
in the event of an eruption. The birds have evolved long,
useless tail feathers and they engage in intricate mating dances
lasting up to five days that have been described
so frequently by the visiting ornithologists, they don’t even seem
that interesting anymore. They have grown ordinary
as dollar bills or the lint you find in the pockets of your coat.
The Original Visit of Spirit to its Host Medium
Variations resemble their originals
the way we resemble flightless birds,
the poorly coordinated limb movements,
the looking over our shoulders
as if guilty of a crime that might land us
in the county jail
where the inmates are all sleeping soundly
now that the holiday is over.
I admire the way light refuses
to travel any farther than it has to,
the way the sky becomes a permeable barrier,
but a barrier nonetheless, keeping us
locked in like ants in those plastic ant farms
we used to buy at the dime store.
Thankfully, the penchant
for organizing ourselves
into ever more complicated hierarchies
has gone the way of the red wolf,
with instead our instinct for joy
showing through finally in the songs
we sing spontaneously, songs
about wheelbarrows and knife fights,
songs that resemble in their simplicity
those Beethoven composed
when he was interested in the music
of grocers, of farmers in grottos
rather than the other stuff,
the enormous, important
Vienna-soaked concoctions
designed to make him immortal
but which strike us now
as throwbacks to a time when people felt
as if they were being watched
at every moment of every day
by something enormous but
something they could not see,
something so far removed
from current circumstances,
it might as well have been stumbling about,
hopeless and alone,
on Jupiter.
Fantastical Settings Enriched with Contemporary Incident
Determine age with radioactive half-lives,
surveys and old photos of the Dave Clark Five.
It won’t make any difference. We realize
soon enough numbers of this sort are meaningless as
a handful of goose feathers stuck to the sidewalk
on a day with no rain.
Not even the looming threat of nihilism
will change anyone’s mind.
Most likely we’ll have hands raised here and there
to ask after the definition
as people don’t read the Russians much anymore,
except maybe in Alberta where, well, …
what else are you going to do?
We look to the future as if it were some grand Yosemite
hanging in the air and doing summersaults,
a kiddie-land paradise
that just happens to be overrun with bears
difficult to spot,
what with the deep shadows, the heat rising in undulating waves
off the mostly full parking lots.
Maybe we have one too many hours
given to us in a day
from the generous activity of the sun itself
and we should just go ahead and behave
as if we don’t know some day the sun is going to wink out,
is going to extinguish itself because
to go on forever would be immodest.
At Ninety Minutes Over its Allotted Running Time
Panic might seem the most logical reaction
given the sudden, drain-like movement of the stars,
the rumors circulating in a mirrored pattern
here in the towns and townships far below.
Their momentum is starting to fail, though,
the most innocuous inertia has set in,
and even the black cat in the window
across the street no longer bothers to track
your every movement with its head.
The grocery store is suddenly lousy with cantaloupe.
We could chalk these miracles up
to others taking us seriously for a change,
listening to our endless complaints and heartache
without breaking into so much as a smirk.
But we would be mistaken.
We would be victims
of our own strict upbringing and lax study skills,
of our newfound love for Japanese whiskey
and checkers instead of backgammon,
for at least four of the old commandments,
especially that one warning us away
from expensive things and attractive people.
Presumably, therein lies the path
to dissatisfaction, to a constant low-grade humiliation
caused by asking questions like
where are you going and what is that heavenly scent?
Charles Freeland lives in Dayton, Ohio. His website is
The Fossil Record.
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